Saturday, December 10, 2011

A Christmas Dream.


This story touch my heart and soul...... May we all take the time to find Christ this year.

In our hearts. In our minds. In our lives. As we do, there shall we find JOY!


A CHRISTMAS DREAM

By David LeFlor Norberg

“And behold, he shall be born of Mary, at Jerusalem which is the land of our forefathers, she being a virgin, a precious and chosen vessel…”

James 5:14-15


As we drove toward home, the brilliant light of the full moon danced upon the freshly fallen snow. The Christmas lights twinkled on the houses, making them come alive like something out of a storybook, flashing messages of joy and cheer. It was a beautiful night. Thoughts of happiness filled the crisp, winter air as the season approached, but not for my wife, Annie, and I. We were returning from the drudgery of the busy malls where it seemed that the Christmas spirit had fled, replaced by “I was here first!” People climbed over people to get the last item in stock, or pushed and shoved to be the next in line. It took whatever happiness the season had awakened totally out of our minds. Somehow the Christmas spirit was gone from me, and it looked like Annie had almost lost it, too.

We had gone from store to store trying to find the last thing on our Christmas list, a German-made train set (LGB), for our oldest boy, Willy, who had asked once again for it for Christmas. We finally located one in an exclusive toy store. When I saw the price tag on it, I gasped. It was over three hundred dollars, and the extra train cars he wanted running about thirty-five dollars apiece. We would be into it for more than five hundred dollars! I looked at Annie and didn’t know what to say. We hadn’t spent this much on our other two boys together, not even half that amount. We wondered if we should spend this much for Willy? Neither one of us were sure what we should do, but I reminded myself how Willy had asked for this same train set for the past two years. My business was doing very well this year, and it would look great around the Christmas Tree. Why not? Looking at Annie, I smiled and said, “Let’s get it for him. I’ll bring him back on Saturday so he can pick his extra train cars?” Annie was caught a little off guard, and asked, “Won’t that ruin the surprise for him?” “It will a little, but he’s ten years old now and understands the Santa concept?” I paused as if to justify my actions. “Besides at these prices, we should make sure they are what he wants, and not have to return any of them.” Annie, somewhat hesitantly agreed, and we purchased a starter set and went on our way home. Now the newly-fallen snow slowed the traffic to a crawl, and it was taking almost two hours to get home. Sometimes I wished that Christmas wouldn’t come around each winter because all the traffic snarls it caused, but that was a fleeing thought. When we walked into the house, I heard the phone ringing before one of the boys picked it up. I overheard my son say, “Yes, Bishop, my dad just walked in.” Then in a voice that only an eight-year-old has, he screamed, “Daaaaaddddd, TELEPHONE! It’s the Bishop!” I told him I would take it in the study, and after closing the door, I picked up the phone, embarrassed that the Bishop had heard my son’s yell.

“Hello, Bishop. How can I help you this evening?”

“Hi, Brother Norberg. I’m sorry to bother you so late, but I’ve run into a little problem that could use your help. Wondering what the problem was, I asked somewhat reluctantly, “How can I help?” “Well,” the Bishop paused, as if trying to figure out the right words to say. “We have a new family that just moved into our ward a few weeks ago. They are having financial problems. The father has just been laid-off from his job and the mother has her hands full trying to take care of their four children while her husband is out looking for work.” I knew where the Bishop was heading with his story and I wasn’t very excited about helping out, especially since we had just spent such a large amount of money on Willy’s gift. “So you can imagine,” the Bishop continued, “they aren’t going to have much of a Christmas this year unless we help.” He paused again, “We were hoping that with your company’s company's buying power, that maybe you could help us?” Knowing I would probably regret my next statement, I continued, “Sure, Bishop, what can I do?” “We have found out that this family of six doesn’t have a washer and dryer, so the mother goes to the Laundromat three nights a week. We have come up with three hundred dollars from other member donations…hopefully, with your discount, we can get them a new washer and dryer for Christmas?” I wanted to laugh. Even with the discounts I could arrange, they were still short a few hundred dollars, even for the low-end machines. I thought I might as well tell him the truth. “Bishop, you’re about two hundred dollars short, including my discounts.” There was a long pause, then the Bishop responsded, “We thought that we might be, Brother Norberg, but we hoped that maybe…” He paused as if to get the courage to ask what was on his mind, and said, “…maybe you could help make up the difference?” Somehow, that didn’t seem to shock me, I almost expected it. Because I was tired from the long evening shopping, and driving in the snow, my answer wasn’t too enthusiastic. “Bishop,” I said, “let me see what I can do. I’ll get back to you?” The Bishop thanked me and hung up. Later that night, as I was getting ready for bed, I told my wife about the phone call with the Bishop. I quizzed her to see what she thought about it all. In spite of her tiredness, her eyes glowed with excitement at the thought of helping someone else with their Christmas. She reminded me about how ten years earlier someone had helped us because I was out of a job. Now we had the chance to reciprocate. The more she talked, the more enthusiastic she became. She came up with a noble idea, use the three hundred dollars from the Bishop and ward for Christmas gifts for the family, and we would provide the washer and dryer to this family ourselves. Still very tired, and not sharing her enthusiuasm, I left the decisions to her, and told her that I would arrange for a new washer and dryer to be delivered on Christmas Eve for the family. The next day at work was a hectic one, but I managed to call the Bishop and tell him that I would take care of the washer and dryer. The Bishop responded that he already knew; Annie had called to tell him of the change of plans. She had also received all the necessary information on each of the children. The Bishop thanked me for my deep love of my fellow man, told me I would be richly blessed. I listened, rolled my eyes, and gave a long sigh, then hung up. I called a good friend of mine, Dan, who owned an appliance outlet, and explained what I wanted. Surprised at my friend’s response, I listened as Dan eagerly told of his wish to be a part of the surprise. He would give us the top-of-the-line models at the low end pricing, and he would have it delivered on Christmas Eve with big red ribbons. I couldn’t believe it. Everyone was getting into the act, yet I still felt so numb to it all.

That evening our family went to Temple Square to see the Christmas lights and listen to the story of the Savior’s birth. Staring at the snow-covered nativity figures, I could sense the growing awe that filled my son with wonderment. Standing hand in hand with Willy, I was touched to see him so moved by the Spirit of the Season, it seemed we were all engulfed by that same spirit. On the way home, Willy talked about the true meaning of Christmas and how he wished we could help someone, like Jesus had taught us to do. Annie picked up on this moment and told the children about a family that needed help this Christmas, and did they want to help? The boys were thrilled with the idea, and a plan was set in motion to do the shopping that very next Saturday. The day arrived, the last Saturday before Christmas, and we scurried between stores at the mall. Annie took the younger boys with her to shop for the “Christmas Family,” and I took Willy with me to the toy store to get the long-awaited train cars. Willy jumped up and down with excitement as we selected the cars he’d wanted for so long. It was a dream come true for him. He wanted to tell everyone, but was specifically instructed against it. His brothers still believed in Santa Claus, and even Willy’s jubilation shouldn’t spoil that secret for them. Nevertheless, Willy knew this was the best Christmas a boy could ever have. He was thrilled to think that he would finally get his long-awaited Christmas wish.

Later, we all met in front of the big department store. Annie and the younger boys had gotten all the gifts for the “Christmas Family,” except one, the oldest boy who was eight-years-old. They pondered what they might get for him that would make his Christmas special, and finally decided on a new bicycle. I looked at Annie and asked how much she had left from the three hundred dollars? She told me, “about ten dollars.” Shock! But my dismay was quickly melted away by our sons excitement for the bike, so I smiled and said, “Let’s go and get the bike.” The day before Christmas finally rolled around, I checked with my friend, the washer and dryer had been delivered. The boys and Annie had spent the last couple of days wrapping gifts, and filling the house with the smell of cookies they made for the family. Willy spent the morning in our food storage room putting together a couple of boxes of food as a final gift. I called the father of our “Christmas Family” and told him we had some gifts for his children and would like to bring them over after they had gone to bed. The father humbly gave me a time, and address, and quietly hung up. I felt compassion for this father’s embarrassment as I had been there myself, and I wanted to make this task as anonymous as possible. I decided to take Willy along to hurry with the delivery. That way, only Willy, Annie, and I would know who this family was. The boys loaded the van, and I explained to them that Santa would pick them up from there and deliver the packages on his rounds with his reindeer, they understood, and I whispered to Willy that I needed his help later to deliver them when his brothers were asleep. Willy happily agreed, and I stressed the importance of respect and anonymity for this family. He could never tell anyone who they were, Ever! That is the way Savior would want it. Willy Understood.A light snow fell as Willy and I drove the ten blocks to our new neighbor’s home. It was a small house, and the freshly-fallen snow made it look so peaceful and serene. The glow from the fireplace warmly lit the living room and was the only light coming from inside as we approached their humble abode. We saw our breath in the crisp, cold air, and heard the crunch of the snow beneath our feet, we carried our gifts toward the house. We quietly knocked on the door, careful, determined not to wake the children.

The door was opened by an older gentleman, who greeted us with great humiliation. Inviting us into his home, we smelled the familiar pine scent and saw a small Christmas tree with a single strand of lights around it, with only a few presents beneath it. I noticed that the only heat seemed to be coming from the fireplace. On the couch was a woman stroking a small boy’s curly brown hair as he cuddled under a blanket to keep himself warm. He was sound asleep. I could see, as I looked into the mother’s eyes, that she had been crying. The father motioned to Willy and I to be quiet, and he gently picked up the boy to carry him off to bed. When the blanket fell away, we noticed braces, with leather straps that held them in place, running down both sides of his deformed, thin, little legs. Willy was mesmerized by the boy; my heart melted as I viewed the little boy. I felt a large lump in my throat as I gratefully compared my three healthy sons, as well as my ample income, to their meager means and situation of this humble family.

As the father left the room, the mother got up, shook my hand, and introduced herself. She explained that her son was in constant pain and had trouble sleeping. She found that reading to him helped take his mind off his painfully crippled legs. I introduced her to Willy as the father came back into the room. I watched Willy start putting the gifts under the tree, pausing at times as if deep in thought. Willy then went back out to the van to get more gifts, and each time he would pause, as if trying to understand what he had just seen. I spent the time talking to the father about his job search for an accountant position. Fortunately, I knew someone who was looking for just such an employee. I promised to help him obtain the position right after Christmas. I listened as he said how the little money they had left was being eaten up by medical bills for their handicapped son. They explained all this to me with emotion filled voices, and not complaints, and remarked what a loving child he was, and that their family didn’t consider him a burden; that all their sacrifices were worth anything the family had to endure. I felt something stirring deep within my heart, for as a father, I too understood this kind of love. When Willy had finally finished bringing in all the gifts, except one. He said it was too heavy for him to handle by himself, and sat quietly on the couch, deep in thought. He picked up the little boy’s book, apparently well-worn from the many readings by the mother. I too remembered the last gift in the van, and excused myself to go and get it. I felt nervous about the gift, knowing it was a bicycle. I just didn’t know what to do about it now. I reasoned that they could exchange it for something else after Christmas. Praying for help to explain the bike to these wonderful people, I pondered how I could have been so ignorant. Why hadn’t I done a little more checking with the Bishop before we bought this gift? But I hadn’t, because I had been too arrogant, and self centered to ask for more details about them! Now I prayed that they would understand my thoughtless mistake.

As I started to pull out the bike, I felt Willy tugging on my coat sleeve. “Dad,” he said, then paused until he got my full attention. “I’ve got an idea…and please don’t get upset at me.” He spoke in such hushed tones that I could barely hear him. “What is it, son?” I asked, giving him my full attention. “I wish ...” he paused, then took a big swallow. “I want that boy to have my new train set…and…and I’ll take the new bike!” As he spoke he looked at the ground, waiting for my response. I stared in astonishment. I wondered if my son knew what he was saying. He was offering to give away a dream, one that he’d had for two years…and to a total stranger! The image of five-hundred dollars worth of train stuff flashed through my mind. How could this be? Stunned, I blurted out, “Why, son?”

“Dad,” Willy said, looking into my eyes, “We know he will never ride a bike and I know he wants a train set?” I stared in disbelief as he continued. “The book his mom was reading to him was The Big Book of Trains.” Then Willy said something that struck me deep within my heart. “You told us that Jesus taught that it is more important to give than to receive…so, I’d like to do what He taught, in honor of His birth.”

I looked at my son. Willy’s eyes were pleading as tears gently fell from them. “Are you sure, son?” I managed to utter. Willy nodded yes. I hugged him tightly as I felt the tears well up in my own eyes. “Willy, go tell them we forgot one gift and we will be right back with it.” As I watched my ten-year-old son literally run to the door with excitement to give them the message, my heart swelled with pride for him. Willy had shown more love than most adults ever do. In fact, more love than I had shown. I had never been so simply taught the true meaning of Christmas and the gift of sacrifice. It was an act of pure love. One that was supposed to be so universal, especially at this season. My son had just given me the greatest gift without even realizing it - an example of pure, selfless, sacrificing love for his fellow man. As we returned later to that humble home with the extra gift, I watched my son beam with joy as he carried the packages to the door all by himself. The mother of the young crippled boy warmly gave Willy a heartfelt hug and a wave goodbye. I had just witnessed the miracle of Christmas expressed lovingly that night by a young child - my child. The meaning of sacrifice took on a new significance that night as I looked upon my son’s face and thought of another little boy so long ago in Bethlehem.

Christmas morning was a special one for Annie and I as we watched our boys excitedly open their gifts. Especially as we saw Willy’s satisfaction, smiling at his new bike. He knew. We knew. We’d always know. That bike would always hold special memories for all of us, and the true meaning of Christmas in our hearts. It was a Christmas wish come true.




(This story is based on a true incident from the author’s life).
All names have been changed to protect privacy.

© Copyright 2011. David LeFlor Norberg. All Rights Reserved.http://www.ldsshortstories.com

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Forever and Always.





This post is a hard one for me to write....
I've been trying to put words together all week
but there are few that seem to suffice
Being away from Home and family when tragedy strikes
is something that will forever change you
something that has forever changed me.

My Dearest Auntie Vena
was called back to her Heavenly Home
Sunday November 27th

This wonderful woman
has forever changed the course of my life
and I simply cannot imagine where I would be
without her wonderful family


I remember the first time our families came together.....
We were living in San Diego at the time
and her boys were playing in a golf tournament there
They came to stay with us for a few days
and those few days would forever change our family.
It was then that my two younger brothers and I
decided to play Golf
It was then that we first met our cousins
Tony and Gipper and our Uncle Kelepi.

A few months later
my Uncle and Gipper flew back down
to help move our family to Utah.
My Mom had just had a baby
and moving a family of our size was never an easy task
My uncle drove the U-Haul
my Dad drove our family van full of kids
and we made our trek to Utah.
Upon arrival we came to find
that the home we had originally planned to live in
was no longer an option
here we are Dad, us 7 kids at the time
a brand new baby, and mother who was still recuperating
all our belongings packed into a u-haul
but no place to go for the time being........

But at that moment
an Angel
with a husband and 6 children of her own
took in an extra family of 9
She took care of my own mother
and insisted we all stay until we could arrange for a home.
This act of love and charity
truly exemplified the woman my Auntie Vena was throughout her entire life
Never were you left hungry, thirsty, or unloved in the presence of this woman
her smile and laughter could light up a household
and each of her children are testimonies of that.

Since that time this woman and her family
have become my own.
Her sons are my brothers
and her daughters my sisters
their love and example on the golf course and in life
are something that cannot be given a price tag
something I thank my Heavenly Father for everyday

Because of them

I have the game of golf.
I have a father who has come to understand me as his daughter
I have brothers who are by best friends
and a sister who looks to me in her every action
I have traveled to world
meeting people whom I will never forget
experienced things that have forever changed me
and accomplished fetes that will never leave me.

Because of them
I have been given scholarships, opportunities, and experiences
that I never could have imagined.
Because of them I am who I am today.

The sorrow and pain I feel for this family
is beyond explainable
as Death always is
and throughout this week I have often asked myself
Why?
Why them? Why now? Why this way?
Why ever?
and although I do not know and understand ALL things.....
This I do know
I know that my Auntie Vena lives on
that her family will be together again someday
and that they will forever be one.
I know that as heartbreaking and painstaking this experience has been,
the wonderful memories of love and laughter
will forever out weight this ache and pain.

How grateful I am for this wonderful woman
for the opportunity I had to call her Auntie
in the time she spent her on Earth.
How grateful I am for the wonderful children she raised
and the impact each of them have had on my life
their strength and testimonies are a beacon to all who know them
and I will forever love them with all my heart.









I love you Auntie Vena,
I promise to watch over your boys
as you always did.
I will love them as my own brothers
and remind them of your eternal love for them.
Say hello to my Grandma Eva and Grandpa Jack,
give them my love and take care of them for me.
Until we meet again,
Forever and Always
your niece Selu
xoxo

Thursday, December 1, 2011

bLeSSed.


I can't believe it's December.
I've been meaning to post
about my first Thanksgiving away from Home
But things here have been a bit crazy
to say the least....

My Thanksgiving was
WONDERFUL!
I spent my Thanksgiving Day
in WaTONGA, Oklahoma
Yes W-A-T-O-N-G-A
Its a small southern town just like many here in OK.
But the people were delightful,
and how grateful I am for their hospitality.
My lovely teammate Karson and her family
hosted the plentiful ocassion
and I had some of my foreign teammates with me as well
we had a great time!
If I could take only one thing from this adventure
it's that I have been truly blessed with amazing teammates.
The moments I've shared with these girls
will be with me forever
and how grateful I am for each one of them.

I ate entirely WAY TOO MUCH Turkey!
AND it was deep fried Turkey for that matter.
Don't ask, just take my word for it
it was the best thing these lips have ever feasted upon.
I probably ate 6 pieces of pie
NOT EVEN kidding
It was great :)




my baby Elcin :) love this girl with all my heart!
She is from Turkey, and this was her first "turkey day"

playin a little baseball :)
made me miss my little brothers.


trying to teach and girl from Taiwan, Austria, and Turkey
how to play spoons = ONE crazy card game :)


This month has been an interesting one for me....
I have been really homesick
I've talked to my mom like twice or three times
EVERYDAY.
I think she is ready to turn her phone off
Never the less, she picks it up without fail.
How eternally grateful I am for her

I am grateful for many things......
here are just a few:

I am grateful for the Gospel and the truthful peace it provides
I would be so very lost without it.

I am grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ
he has been by my side through every moment
and I love him with all my heart.

I am grateful for my parents, siblings, and niece
they are my sunshine on a cloudy day
and their bright smiles, and shining examples keep me going.

I am grateful for wonderful grandparents
who have passed on a legacy of faith and righteousness.

I am grateful for opportunities

I am grateful for trials
because in them we find the strength to overcome
I am grateful for wonderful friends

I am grateful for the chance I have to go Home
the opportunity I have to go to BYU
to play golf and to be surrounded by those I love.

Heavenly Father has given me more than I deserve
more than I could ever ask for
more than I ever needed.
and how grateful I am for him

Happy Holidays to all
I hope you will be able to find joy in each day
and laughter all along the way :)

xoxo
Always and Forever
Selu Marie

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Champions.


Let me just say,
State Championships have kinda become a Fotu Family tradition.

NOW that may sound a little arrogant and biased
but its True :)
so what if I am biased,
my mother has always told me that.
But this is my blog, I can say what I want right!?

Of the 4 oldest Fotu children
we've had 5 State Championships
and the 6th was added on Friday.

Although I could go on and on about the athletic ability
of each of my siblings, I wont.
Because this is what I have come to conclude.....

I believe there have been 3 major reasons
that each of us have succeeded

1. We have been EXTREMELY blessed to live where we live.
We have been surrounded with athletes of tremendous talent,
and have been blessed to work with wonderful coaches, teachers, and teammates.
I could not ask for a better place to call Home!

2. We have been blessed beyond measure with goodly parents.
Parents whom at a VERY young age
taught us to trust in the Lord, dream big, set goals, work hard,
and believe that no mountain was too high.

lastly.....
3. Heavenly Father has provided each of us with opportunities
that we never imagined.
It is because of him we have been able to play the sports we play
go the places we've gone, meet the life long friends we have,
and learn the lessons we've learned.

Throughout the years
I've learned many lessons from coaches, teammates,
teachers, friends, parents, and each of my siblings.
But this last champion has ingrained a few more lessons into my heart
that I will never forget.

Jake has always been an amazing athlete.
Deciding to play football his senior year
was a decision he truly debated over for a long time.
But once he made that decision
it was ALL or nothing for him.
I cannot recall the countless days throughout the summer
that he was up before the sun
and Home just in time for dinner and bed.
His commitment and work ethic was inspiring to all who watched
and as the football season began
we all knew it was going to be one to remember.

His team went undefeated through the regular season
and they held the #1 ranking for most of the year.
They marched on to defeat Fremont in the Championship game
and finished off a perfect season 14-0
Bringing home Lone Peak's 1st ever Football Championship.
The newspapers, reporters, awards, and accolades
will tell you all you wish to know about the talent of each of these boys.


But what you wont find there is this.....

Each of these boys are brothers.
Each of these boys are leaders.
Each of these boys
were willing to give ANYTHING to watch the others succeed.

What you wont find is that the day before every game
10-20 of these boys could be found at the Temple
honoring their Father in Heaven.
What you wont find is that one of those boys
went down with an injury while going through a warm-up routine
before the first game of the playoffs.
He soon learned that his ACL was completely gone
and he would not finish the season on the field with his team.
He sat out through the semi-final game
but he realized it meant nothing if he didn't finish.
Sure he was on the team all year long,
he was a part of their success
But that was not how he wanted to finish.

The Championship game came
and #7 was dressed and ready on the sidelines.
The game was thrilling :)
The team was marching on to victory
and the margin was great.
So in he went for his final fight!
The first few plays he felt GREAT!
But as he went up to defend a pass, a defender came down on his knee
His teammates gasped,
and those who knew the circumstances knew it was over.
He was down, and he couldn't get up.

But let me tell you this.....
In that moment
some of his closest friends and teammates carried him off the field,
and those who watched couldn't help but notice something odd
He was smiling :)
he couldn't walk, his pain was almost unbearable
but his face held a grin from ear to ear!
He had finished his fight.
Together they had won the battle
and he was smiling!

Sure the memories will last a lifetime,
the rings and trophies will shine for years to come
But to me there is so much more....
To me the memories I will remember
will be that of brothers,
bound together with courage and strength,
honoring the Lord in all they did,
encouraging each other and lifting one another,
all the way to the very end.


I am grateful for them.
For their examples of Faith, Honor, and Perseverance.
And I am ever grateful for that #7
for never giving up,
for fighting to the finish
and for giving me strength to do the same.

I love you Jake!
Always and Forever
Selu Marie
xoxo

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Brothers, Football, Heroes.


I miss these handsome boys!


I feel like each of them holds a special part of my heart,
they are my pride and joy
(much to their dismay at times)
although secretly I know they LOVE
my embarrassing them in front of their friends,
and cheering louder than all the moms
at their sporting events :)

Being away from them for long periods of time
tugs at my heartstrings
and I know they get sick of talking to me
because I call so often throughout the week.

This year with 4 of them playing football....
Well lets just say I call ALL THE TIME!

But
This one....
has always been my little boy.
(not so little anymore is he?)

I'm not sure how to explain the love I have for this kid...
since we were little I always wanted him to be my little "buddy"
in my eyes he could do NO wrong
and for those who thought differently, they had another thing comin!
Even as we've grown up I have always wanted to be by his side
every football game, basketball game, golf tournament, track meet,
you NAME IT. I was there.

When working towards a task or goal
this kid cannot be stopped.
He has a passion for the game he plays
and watching his life unfold has inspired me beyond measure.

His path has been FAR from easy,
and at times I have sincerely prayed and pleaded
that I could somehow take his burdens from him.....

Sometimes I questioned why things had to happen to him,
when he is so deserving of all things good and great.
I would give anything to see him attain his goals and dreams
and I felt the Lord had given him too much to handle.

But let me tell you this,
NEVER once has this he complained.
NEVER once has he given up.
and NEVER once has he failed to exercise his Faith.
He is my Hero.
He has given me the strength to understand hard things
He has given me the courage to persevere and push on
and for that I am forever grateful.

Tomorrow he will fight with his football team for a State Championship
and tomorrow my heart and stomach
will be turning ALL DAY LONG!







BRING IT HOME BOYS!

xoxo
Always and Forever
Selu Marie


Saturday, November 12, 2011

Beginnings and Endings.


These lovelies are
FINALLY
coming Home.

(my Aunt Kerstin and Uncle Mike with their beautiful family)

She's more like my sister than my Aunt
and her kids are my babies.

I'm a lot like her in many ways
and many times throughout my life
she has been my strength.

They've been gone for almost 3 years now
living on an island too far away to swim.
and considering the average plane ticket to and from
this little island is quite pricey
We haven't been together in a long time.
I've missed them
more than they will ever know

Being so far away has been hard
and at times I wouldn't call for long amounts of time
because it was just easier that way.

But today I am overwhelmed with gratitude
for a Father in Heaven
who is allowing our Family to be together again.

Today was there last Sunday on their little Island
they are leaving behind many
who have come to love them as I do.
Many who have loved them as their own
and given them a place to call home away from home
I am grateful for these wonderful people
and the love they have given this dear family of mine.

I know they will be missed
but I pray with all my heart that those they leave behind
will know how grateful I am for the Lords timing.
Our family has long awaited this day
and I'm grateful he sees it fit to bless us
with each others presence once again.
A piece of my heart
has long been on an island
far from me.
And although it has been tenderly cared for
and lovingly watched over,
it is still a piece I am missing
one I long for
one I need.
And I am indeed grateful
for its return.

May we all find a deeper sense of gratitude
for the things and people we love the most
as we are reminded through this month of Thanksgiving :)




xoxo
Always and Forever
Selu Marie


Truly Grateful. May we never forget....


I know this is a day late,
But I would be VERY ungrateful
If I did not express my deep gratitude and appreciation
for those who have served and those who continue to serve our country.
These men and women give their lives
for you
and for me.
And for this I am truly grateful.

My Grandma shared this video clip
its quite moving.
Definitely worth watching.



Happy Veterans Day!
May we never forget that Freedom
is not Free.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Floods, Earthquakes, Tornadoes...... Blessings???


Wow.
What a week.
To be quite honest it's been
CRAZY
to say the least.

Saturday= Earthquake,
2:30 a.m. and I was DEAD asleep
so I didn't feel it.
BUT
Saturday night=
10:30 p.m. laying on my bed listening to tunes
and pinning, yes pinning is my new addiction
when ALL of a SUDDEN
my entire bed is shaking uncontrollably.
First thought,
the guys up stairs are gettin a little rowdy.
Second thought,
nobody lives upstairs.
Third,
Am I having a seizure?
and Fourth,
NO you dummy!!! EARTHQUAKE!!!
Okay, so it knocked a few pictures
and my mirror off the wall.
No big deal right?
WRONG.
K, maybe you're right
but I'll be the first to admit I was scared.
So..... I called my Mom :)
Mothers always make everything better!
(just a small fact, this earthquake was actually
the largest ever recorded in Oklahoma. WEIRD.)

Now, Monday.
Just to be clear
"head to the storm shelter, a Tornado is on the ground
and headed our way!"
are words you NEVER want to experience for yourself

Did you ever pretend there was a Tornado coming
when you were little?
GUILTY.
But even my 7-10 yr. old imaginative brilliance
couldn't prepare me for that moment.

Thoughts rush through your head,
thoughts although somewhat dramatic in nature they may be,
are none the less very real at that moment
and you NEVER want them to become reality.
Things are quickly put into perspective as you
simply
SIT
and wait
for the unknown.

And let me just say,
underground storm shelters
are NOT a comforting place to contemplate
the fulfillment of you life.
Just Sayin!

So, Tornado passes
ALL is well.

(mind you, this was recorded as the biggest tornado in Oklahoma history.... Lovely.)oklahoma ef-4 tornado



For an hour, then Tornado is headed back this way
REALLY???
So.... More waiting. Not quite as long.
an hour or so
until we are finally cleared for relief!

Then......
The floods came.
AND
another earthquake
just a tiny one.
and after all the other excitement it seemed like nothing!
I know CRAZY right!?
Although I was
probably more scared for my life than ever,
and ridiculous unimaginable thoughts flashed through my head
at the rate of light
I can honestly say
I had a calm, peaceful feeling throughout
the whole ordeal,
and my thoughts turned towards wonderful memories.
Like I said before
its times like these when you realize
Who matters, What doesn't
and where you want to be when all is said and done

And in the end
I am forever grateful that I get to spend the rest of my life
and Eternity
with these crazies

Because without them
I am nothing.
And that's what this week of CRAZINESS
has blessed me with.
Blessed. Thankful.

xoxo
Always and Forever
Selu Marie

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Happy Happy Birthday to my most wonderful Mother!


It's her birthday today.
and no words are enough......

All who know her
will agree with me
when I say that she is the most selfless and caring person
in the world.
I can truly say
that
NEVER
No, not once
have I ever heard her speak badly of someone
NEVER.

She does not complain
even though she could almost always find something
worth complaining over
but she doesn't

As I recount the last 21 years of my life
there is not a single moment among those years
that my Mom wasn't a part of
in some way, shape, or form

I've always been a Daddy's girl
I clung to him at all times when I was little
and usually when I cried I wanted my Dad.

But over the years
she has become the one to wipe away my tears
and pick me up when all goes wrong.

As I think back
I know that I never appreciated her enough....
Moving away from Home has made me realize
just how much she is a part of my everyday life
and just how much she means to me.

Her love gives me strength
Her courage inspires me
Her patience astounds me
and her example is one that I can only hope to follow

I am so grateful for her never ending love
and patience
There have been many times when I was far from deserving that love
but she NEVER stopped.
My greatest hope is to someday become like her

So
To my Dearest Mother,
Happy Happy Birthday
I love you more than you will ever know
and
I'm grateful the Lord knew
how badly I needed a mother like you.
Although I'm not with you on your special day
you've been in my mind all along
and I know it won't be long til I am home once again.
Thank you for loving me
for loving my Father
and for loving the Lord.
You are Hero
my heart and my soul
and I love you with all that I am!
Thank you for being you
Happy Happy Birthday

xoxo
Always and Forever
Selu Marie




Monday, October 24, 2011

Happiness.?


Let me just put this out there
if you are ever considering taking more than 18 credits
BE ABSOLUTELY SURE that your end goal is
TOTALLY and COMPLETELY
worth it!!!
Because if it isn't
you are gonna want to rip out every hair on your head.
Who am I kidding!?
My goal is totally worth it and I already have a bald spot!

Okay,
all kidding aside
I would not ever ReCoMmEnd
you
or anyone else
to take 23 credits.
It's death
and playing a sport on top of that
=
double death

BUT
I will tell you this
YOU CAN DO IT!

While beginning this whole process I had person
after person, after person
tell me that I was crazy
that I would fail
and that It was impossible.

And I'm telling you
they were ALL WRONG.

When you want something so badly
and you have the Lord on your side
you WILL NOT Fail.
I have learned this in a very real and personal way
over these last few weeks
and I am telling
YOU

He will strengthen you
He will guide you
and he will carry you when you can no longer stand

When doubt and fear and worry start to creep in
He will wipe it ALL away.

And when you think he has no time for your simple little worries
He will make you a believer once again!

God wants us to be Happy
YES you saw right!
God WANT US to Be HAPPY!
Now,
this does not mean our road to Happiness will be easy
or that we will always know which way to go without a doubt.....
But he knows each of us
our wants
our desires
and our needs
and he will fill our lives with these things
and SO much more!

So
what makes You happy?
Are you moving towards or away from that happiness?
and when you are trying to get there
are you Happy?
Just something to think about :)
more about my happiness to come




xoxo
Always and Forever
Selu Marie




Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Worth Waiting For


I thought this was the CUTEST thing ever!
thought I'd share :)

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Mother Dear, I LOVE you SO!



So... I really LOVE the one like this that says

Keep Calm
and
Carry on.

But sometimes
(actually more often than not)
I
Freak out
and
call my Mom
It's just my go to
keeping calm is not really in my nature
BUT
it is something I work at on a daily basis :)
and I'm getting better
due to the help and extreme patience of my wonderful Mother.
I honestly do not know what I ever did
to deserve such an amazing Mother
I'm thinking Heavenly Father knew how needy I would be here on earth
and he decided he had better send me to someone beyond wonderful
in order for me to have even the slightest chance at success.
In any case no matter how it all came about,
I am ever grateful for his wisdom....

There are no words to fully describe my mother
from the time I was a little girl
my favorite part of the week was getting to go to the grocery store
with my Mom
and since then the joy in our outings together has never faded
I can tell my her
EVERYTHING
but usually I don't even have to
because she already knows.
But even though she knows all
as Mothers always do
She still listens with open ears, and a heart of gold
she lets me vent, and complain
wine, cry, and laugh
then cry a little more.
Mind you she has 11 other Fotu's
plus my Dad which equals 3
and a grandbaby to worry about
yet she still finds a large amount of time for her homesick 21 yr. old

This last week the homesick bug hit hard
it was late on a Friday night
and I couldn't sleep
I had already talked to my Mom earlier in the day
and didn't want to bother her again with my pitiful homesickness...
But there I sat on my bed
a thousand miles away from home
probably on facebook or something of the sort
when my phone rang
and of course it was
My Mother
words cannot describe the joy that filled me
we talked for over an hour
about nothing really
just to pass the time
but every second of it meant all the world to me....

How grateful I am for a Mother who cares
a Mother who knows
a Mother who is selfless
and a Mother like mine.

I only hope that someday I can become JUST LIKE HER.

I Love you Mom

Always and Forever
xoxo
Selu Marie

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Haaaappy Burrrrrfday :)


Wishing this pretty lady a VERY happy birthday!

Yesterday she turned 23
and out of all the children in heaven I was given
the sweet blessing of sharing 21 and a half of those years with her.

Words cannot even begin to explain how much she means to me....
and as I think about our time together
my eyes fill with tears of gratitude for every moment we've shared.

I will admit many of those moments were spent
fighting, arguing, teasing or crying,
of course I was always the one crying
because either she had hit harder than I possibly could
or I was crying to get her in trouble

And I almost always got my way,
and usually still do to this day............
(and she will laugh when she sees this because I have always denied that)
I liked to think it was because I am the favorite child ;)
but to be quite honest
It's because she has ALWAYS been the bigger person
from the very beginning....

I learned to walk
by holding on to the back of her toy car as she drove it around our living room

I gained my first love of sports
by following her onto the volleyball court

I was taught how to dress by her flare for fashion

I was given the chance to see her overcome trials
and truly succeed

I learned from her tears of heartache and boys

I gained a hope for my future
as I saw her marry the many of her dreams for eternity

I saw true love as she carried her first child
and gave birth to that beautiful baby girl

Although she says she had to hold my hand until I was 20
I beg to differ
She never held my hand,
she held my heart.

All I ever wanted was to be just like her
walk like her, talk like her, and of course look like her.
She was my idol and to this day
I only hope that someday I can become like her

Her example and love are something I learn from everyday
Just like my mother, she is never quick to judge
she takes the time to truly understand those around her
and her heart of gold never ceases to amaze me.

I've watched her all along her journey
her ups and downs
her highs and lows
She's come so far is so few years
sometimes I can't believe my eyes.
Daughter.
Sister.
Wife.
and mother
Mother.

I only hope that someday I may amount to half her goodness.

I love you Jax
with all my heart!
Thank you for being the sister I always needed
Happy Happy Birthday
with many more to come :)
xoxo