Happiness.?

Let me just put this out there

if you are ever considering taking more than 18 credits

BE ABSOLUTELY SURE that your end goal is

TOTALLY and COMPLETELY

worth it!!!

Because if it isn't

you are gonna want to rip out every hair on your head.

Who am I kidding!?

My goal is totally worth it and I already have a bald spot!

Okay,

all kidding aside

I would not ever ReCoMmEnd

you

or anyone else

to take 23 credits.

It's death

and playing a sport on top of that

=

double death

BUT

I will tell you this

YOU CAN DO IT!

While beginning this whole process I had person

after person, after person

tell me that I was crazy

that I would fail

and that It was impossible.

And I'm telling you

they were ALL WRONG.

When you want something so badly

and you have the Lord on your side

you WILL NOT Fail.

I have learned this in a very real and personal way

over these last few weeks

and I am telling

YOU

He will strengthen you

He will guide you

and he will carry you when you can no longer stand

When doubt and fear and worry start to creep in

He will wipe it ALL away.

And when you think he has no time for your simple little worries

He will make you a believer once again!

God wants us to be Happy

YES you saw right!

God WANT US to Be HAPPY!

Now,

this does not mean our road to Happiness will be easy

or that we will always know which way to go without a doubt.....

But he knows each of us

our wants

our desires

and our needs

and he will fill our lives with these things

and SO much more!

So

what makes You happy?

Are you moving towards or away from that happiness?

and when you are trying to get there

are you Happy?

Just something to think about :)

more about my happiness to come

xoxo

Always and Forever

Selu Marie

Worth Waiting For

I thought this was the CUTEST thing ever!

thought I'd share :)

Mother Dear, I LOVE you SO!

So... I really LOVE the one like this that says

Keep Calm

and

Carry on.

But sometimes

(actually more often than not)

I

Freak out

and

call my Mom

It's just my go to

keeping calm is not really in my nature

BUT

it is something I work at on a daily basis :)

and I'm getting better

due to the help and extreme patience of my wonderful Mother.

I honestly do not know what I ever did

to deserve such an amazing Mother

I'm thinking Heavenly Father knew how needy I would be here on earth

and he decided he had better send me to someone beyond wonderful

in order for me to have even the slightest chance at success.

In any case no matter how it all came about,

I am ever grateful for his wisdom....

There are no words to fully describe my mother

from the time I was a little girl

my favorite part of the week was getting to go to the grocery store

with my Mom

and since then the joy in our outings together has never faded

I can tell my her

EVERYTHING

but usually I don't even have to

because she already knows.

But even though she knows all

as Mothers always do

She still listens with open ears, and a heart of gold

she lets me vent, and complain

wine, cry, and laugh

then cry a little more.

Mind you she has 11 other Fotu's

plus my Dad which equals 3

and a grandbaby to worry about

yet she still finds a large amount of time for her homesick 21 yr. old

This last week the homesick bug hit hard

it was late on a Friday night

and I couldn't sleep

I had already talked to my Mom earlier in the day

and didn't want to bother her again with my pitiful homesickness...

But there I sat on my bed

a thousand miles away from home

probably on facebook or something of the sort

when my phone rang

and of course it was

My Mother

words cannot describe the joy that filled me

we talked for over an hour

about nothing really

just to pass the time

but every second of it meant all the world to me....

How grateful I am for a Mother who cares

a Mother who knows

a Mother who is selfless

and a Mother like mine.

I only hope that someday I can become JUST LIKE HER.

I Love you Mom

Always and Forever

xoxo

Selu Marie

Haaaappy Burrrrrfday :)

Wishing this pretty lady a VERY happy birthday!

Yesterday she turned 23

and out of all the children in heaven I was given

the sweet blessing of sharing 21 and a half of those years with her.

Words cannot even begin to explain how much she means to me....

and as I think about our time together

my eyes fill with tears of gratitude for every moment we've shared.

I will admit many of those moments were spent

fighting, arguing, teasing or crying,

of course I was always the one crying

because either she had hit harder than I possibly could

or I was crying to get her in trouble

And I almost always got my way,

and usually still do to this day............

(and she will laugh when she sees this because I have always denied that)

I liked to think it was because I am the favorite child ;)

but to be quite honest

It's because she has ALWAYS been the bigger person

from the very beginning....

I learned to walk

by holding on to the back of her toy car as she drove it around our living room

I gained my first love of sports

by following her onto the volleyball court

I was taught how to dress by her flare for fashion

I was given the chance to see her overcome trials

and truly succeed

I learned from her tears of heartache and boys

I gained a hope for my future

as I saw her marry the many of her dreams for eternity

I saw true love as she carried her first child

and gave birth to that beautiful baby girl

Although she says she had to hold my hand until I was 20

I beg to differ

She never held my hand,

she held my heart.

All I ever wanted was to be just like her

walk like her, talk like her, and of course look like her.

She was my idol and to this day

I only hope that someday I can become like her

Her example and love are something I learn from everyday

Just like my mother, she is never quick to judge

she takes the time to truly understand those around her

and her heart of gold never ceases to amaze me.

I've watched her all along her journey

her ups and downs

her highs and lows

She's come so far is so few years

sometimes I can't believe my eyes.

Daughter.

Sister.

Wife.

and mother

Mother.

I only hope that someday I may amount to half her goodness.

I love you Jax

with all my heart!

Thank you for being the sister I always needed

Happy Happy Birthday

with many more to come :)

xoxo

Love.

Sunday

was

LOVELY

it rained lots more

just in time for my drive to church

through the countryside.

One of the things I miss the most right now

is the sight of seasons changing!

There is just something simply heavenly about

this...

but today I saw just a glimpse of color in that Oklahoma Countryside

and it made me smile from the inside out :)
But you know what else made me smile today???

THIS

The thought of not having General Conference again for
SIX MONTHS
makes me so anxious.
So,
I decided to fully embrace these wonderful words as much as I possibly can
and this was one of my favorites.
Mostly because it reminded me of my own dear father
a man who I can hardly describe in words....
but to me
this quote sums up my father.

"The most important thing a Father can do for his Daughter,
is to LOVE
her Mother."

and I will forever be grateful to him for that

Love
is more than just a word.

Love is something so much more.

Love is painting a pregnant mothers toenails,
because she cannot reach them on her own.

Love is kissing owies better,
when band aids simply will not do.

Love is a father who always knows just what to say.

Love is baked in every home cooked and treat.

Love is hidden in a tear.

Love is smiling when we're sad
so that those around us won't feel bad.

Love is asking for forgiveness

Love is learning how to give

Love is sent through ink and paper

Love is given in a smile :)

Love is knowing that no matter where you are
there is someone praying just for you!

Love is something we think about everyday

Love can change a persons life

Love is sometimes expected more than given

Love is braiding a roommates hair

Love is keeping sisters secrets

Love is EVERYTHING to me :)

Hope you've found some in your day!

xoxo

Rain. Sweat. and Tears.

It rained today,

POURED,

buckets and buckets.

Made me miss home

Made me wanna snuggle up and drink hot cocoa

with french bread of course

Just like my Dad always does.

But instead I went for a run

I ran and ran and ran

til my shoes were full of water

and my eyes were filled with tears.

Some days are harder than others

some trials are steeper still

some people are patient and cheerful

while others simply break in the face of fear.

Life isn't meant to be simple

nor is it just easy breezy

But the moments when God sends you his love

through something as simple as rain

makes you realize that

He cares

and he cries sometimes too.

He feels your heartaches

knows your worries and wonders.

The things that matter to YOU

matter to HIM!

Keep Dreaming. Keep Smiling. Keep trying.

I'll be right there with ya :)

Smiles :)

Today

was

ENCOURAGING.

Encouraging because great things happened.

Encouraging because I still have

MUCH to improve in.

Encouraging because I am blessed beyond measure

with words of truth.

Truth that came to me all through the weekend as I listened

to the words of wonderful prophets

HERE:

http://lds.org/general-conference/sessions/2011/10?lang=eng

Listen to one

just ONE.

I dare you ;)

I'll share more about my FAVORITES from Conference later.

There are OH so many!

Tonight so many things are zipping through this head of mine.....

Elder Fotu leaves for Seattle in the morning

and he gets to call home!

Oh how I would give anything to be there when that phone rings

to hear his voice and laugh.

I miss him.

But I'm SO very excited for him at the same time.

I have a golf tournament in the morning,

and I should probably be sleeping

but blogging will suffice

I wish I were in Seattle,

because my future BYU golf team is there right now.

and MAYBE for other reasons too ;)

but I guess God knows all!

Midterms are about here...

which MEANS

I'M HALF WAY there :)

and also means

23 credits worth of midterms is bound to require

LOTS of ice cream

and probably diet coke

with lime of course!

All these things and SO much more

cross my mind

continually.

All through out the day I get anxious over

SO MANY THINGS!

But

every day I am able to find strength in the little things

and every day I'm able to take one step at a time.

This strength is not that of my own

it's most certainly

from above

and how truly grateful I am for every ounce of it.

If you need some today,

I hope you will get on your knees as ask for it!

A loving father is waiting

and when you call

he will answer.

His encouragement has blessed me today

and I know he will do the same for you

xoxo