GoodBye. my teenage self.

So.....
in approximately 24 hours i will no longer be a teenager.

And over the past few months i've thought about it
ALOT.

one day
i even
CRIED.

yes i know
pretty PaThETiC

But really who wants to get old and wrinkly!?
NOT ME!

BUTTTTT.......
the more i thought about it
the more Grateful i became.
the more,
hopeful.
excited.
and even anxious
for what the future may bring.

I do not know where I will be 20 years from now.
I do not know what i will look like
act like
or if i will even still be here.

But i do have hopes :)

Hopes that I can someday find my true love
my best friend
and
marry him FOR EVER and EVER.

Become a mother
and LOVE my children like i too have been loved.

Build a home
a sanctuary
for others to come to
when looking for a place of solace and strength

See the World
and the beautiful wonders God has blessed us with.

Serve the Lord with all that I have
and LOVE him with all my heart!

The last 20 years have been more than I ever imagined
loss.
heartache.
struggle.
questions.
answers.
love.
strength.
hope.
and power.
Each have found me,
and although I still have questions about
MANY
many
things
I do know this.....

as hard as i may try
20 more years will come
I will get old an wrinkly :(
times of hardship and trial will most likely come again.

BUT
I will FOREVER know the things i know now.

Christ
is
MY best friend!
He has found me at my lowest points
and carried me to where I now can stand.
He will never leave me.

FAMILY
has been and forever will be HERE.
at my side
all along the way.

and lastly
even if i do last 20 more years....
They will be WONDERFUL :)

and i will dance
and smile
All along the way!


so
in other words
BRING ON the next 20 years!

(just hold off on the wrinkles for now)