A time....

I once heard someone say,

that when we get to heaven there will be a MASSIVE room of records

a place where the videos of your entire life are stored

and you can sit and watch them for yourself.

NOW

this may or may not be true.

(honestly though, how COOL would that be?)

But

I do believe

that once we get to that most wonderful place

we will be able to look back.

We WILL be able to remember each moment.

The laughter.

The tears.

The hugs.

The memories.

The lessons.

The heartaches.

The failures.

and

The victories.

They may not be broadcasted for us on a plasma screen tv

but they will be clearly stored in our minds and in our hearts.

So considering all goes well

and my Father above is ever so forgiving

as I truly know he is

I plan on being there.

in Heaven.

looking back on the things I have done in this life

and when I do

I know I will remember 2010 as being a year of

LEARNING.

Sometimes we learn the hard way

through trial and error.

Or we may learn from others mistakes and triumphs.

And other times we will simply discover things by way of searching.

This year has definitely been one of

ALL these ways of learning.

Some of these learning experiences were easy

and even somewhat enjoyable.

But most of the time they were......

Painful.

Frustrating.

Gut Wrenching.

Heartbreaking.

Tearful.

and just downright HARD!

2010 was full of changes.

Changes for good.

ALWAYS for good :)

but who ever said change was easy???

I for one, know that it

is NOT.

But thats why we're here right?

To change.

To grow.

To love

and to LIVE.

There were times when I have wanted to quit.

Times when I wanted to just crawl back into bed and sleep forEVER.

Times when I wanted to cry, and cry and cry.

(and I did, just a little)

Times when I questioned, what I was doing and where I was going.

Times when I felt like I had failed.

and times when i literally fell.

BUUUUUTTTTT

I learned

that when you feel like breaking down

IT'S OK

all you have to do is come to your knees....

and there

with him who loves you most

you WILL find the strength to get up

to move on

to overcome

to smile again :)

to WIN

Because GUESS WHAT???

That big guy upstairs

He NEVER LOSES :)

I hope you will come to find these things out for yourself.

Come to know Christ and Heavenly Father

feel of their love and hope for you

rely on that hope throughout this coming year

and join his team :)

I am

and this year

I plan on winning

ALOT!